Yan Cigui Chapter 68

 Is it extreme?

 No matter how open-minded a person is, he will still have obsessions in his heart.

If not, wouldn't it be really heartless?

But Zhu Xiang was obviously not open-minded. She walked on this road that no one could tell or understand for eight years, and her thoughts became more and more profound.

 She could not find a way to break the situation.

"You want to tear apart their faces and show your mother's pain in front of everyone," Lin Yuntian said, "What if those 'everyone' can't understand it either?"

Zhu Xian couldn't help but look at Lin Yunyan.

"What your grandfather and uncle said is that they can afford the expenses, take care of them without you having to do anything, and they have done their best," Lin Yunyan smiled bitterly and shook her head, "If you are a bystander, who can you understand? Who are you thinking of?"

Zhu Chan was silent.

Her vision was blurred by tears and she could not clearly see Lin Yunyan's expression, but the other party's voice was soft and delicate, like a bowl of warm tea, which made her relax a little.

 She was able to calm down her grief and think seriously.

"There are many sufferings in the world. We have always served a few old people and sick people. We have suffered from poverty and hard work," Lin Yunyan sighed. "But people in the world are not necessarily unable to move or half-dead."

Even Xu Jian's legs in her previous life were completely disabled and she could only rely on a wheelchair to get in and out. No matter how strong her will was, there were still many things that needed to be shared by those around her...

But he is far better than the fourth lady of the British government who "only has a breather".

I really have no consciousness when I really came to the point of Zhu Bling's mother. How can I think and understand Zhu Bling's heart?

"Your grandfather and others may not really understand the pain of you and your mother. They just pretend to be confused, but once they are torn apart, their words are completely tenable," Lin Yunyan said, "Even if you sue Ci Ning Gong and the emperor were informed, and they were not wrong. "

Zhu Xian pursed her lips tightly.

Why doesn't she know?

It is precisely because you know too much that you are powerless and tangled with yourself.

"Yes, no matter how loud I shout, not many people can understand, just like I didn't understand my grandmother back then," Zhu Xiang said with a trembling voice, "Only if you truly love the person on the sick bed, will you think of giving up. ”

 Because it is much harder to give up than to persist.

 Carrying a human life on your back, living in yearning and repentance all your life, and having to face the incomprehension and criticism of others, your heart will definitely not be at peace.

“Persisting effortlessly makes you feel so at ease. After all, you have tried your best,” Zhu Xian curled her lips with a sarcastic smile, “So, if I don't give in, there is nothing I can do about it?”

Lin Yunyan asked: "If something happens to the British government, have you thought about what you would do?"

“I've thought about it,” Zhu Xiang said, “I almost want to stab my mother with scissors, and I even want to stab myself too.

 You see, I have thought of all the ways to die, so I am not afraid.

If your house is ransacked, you can still leave cleanly...

Princess, my only wish is that my mother can walk more smoothly, instead of dragging her along like this and becoming a tool for them to gain fame.

 I also understand that to achieve this goal, there must be some price to pay.

 I committed patricide, and the price will be mine.

If I can tear off their skin, I am a girl from the British government, so I must be part of the price.

 It's also a price, so why can't I do the latter? "

Lin Yunyan held Zhu Xian's hand.

Zhu Xuan understood it more thoroughly than she did.

 If you can see clearly and think clearly, you will be able to better understand your own weakness and powerlessness.

 If this continues, it will be difficult not to go crazy.

 Zhu Chan felt much more relaxed as most of his emotions were vented.

Without speaking to Lin Yunyan, she asked the waiter to bring a basin of water to wash the noodles, and ordered a table of dishes.

After she washed away the tears on her face, Lin Yunyan took out a box of ointment from the sachet at her waist.

This time, it was Zhu Xuan's turn to be surprised: "You still carry this with you?"

Lin Yunyan simply replied: "I'm used to it."

 She is indeed used to it. You won't feel at ease if the seal is not kept close to your body.

Xu Jian has been sitting in a wheelchair for a long time. He must moisten his legs with balm all year round, otherwise he will get cracks.

 Throughout the years, even now, she has not changed.

“Come and eat quickly,” Lin Yunyan and Zhu Xiang filled a bowl of hot soup. “When you are full and have strength, you can cry as much as you want.”

Zhu Xian answered: "After you finish eating, I will take you to meet my brother who cannot return home."

Lin Yunyan responded.

 After eating, Zhu Xiang pulled Lin Yunyan into his carriage and said something to the driver.

Looking at her current appearance, she is as cheerful as usual. How can you see the gloom in her heart?

 Zhu Cheng's outer room lives in Liuguo Hutong.

 The carriage drove straight in and stopped at the place Zhu Xiang said.

Zhu Chan said softly: "I'll just go down, and you can watch from the car, so as not to involve you inexplicably."

 After saying that, Zhu Xiang jumped out of the car without moving the pedals.

Going to the door, she raised her hand and patted the door panel.

　　Not light, but not heavy enough to break the door.

 Not long after, the door opened from the inside.

The person who opened the door was an old woman. When she saw that the person knocking was Zhu Xian, her face turned pale and she subconsciously wanted to close the door.

"You try to close it," Zhu Chan stretched out his hand to block the door, "If you dare to close it, I will smash it."

The old woman swallowed her saliva and did not dare to close the door.

This is a valuable girl in the house. Regardless of the relationship between father and daughter, there are also grandparents and uncles above her. It really hurt the girl's hand. It may not be the same for the lady and the young master who lives here, but she, this old woman, will definitely be in trouble. Understand.

"You..." the old woman smiled ingratiatingly, "Why are you here?"

“I'm passing by and I'm thirsty. Come get a bowl of tea to drink,” Zhu Xiang said, “Why, I can't drink the tea you have here?”

 Old woman: "This..."

During the stalemate, the queen from the outer room asked through the window: "Who is coming?"

 “I'm here.” Zhu Xiang replied straight away.

Mrs. Wang saw Zhu Chan's appearance clearly and walked to the yard reluctantly: "Girl, since you are here, come in and sit down."

 When the master spoke, the old woman opened the door and turned around to prepare tea.

Zhu Xian didn't mean to close the door at all. Instead, he opened the other door.

　　Taking the pedal from the handlebar, she swung it to the door and sat down like a crotch.

Seeing her like this, Madam Wang twitched her lips: "Girl, this is against the rules..."

"The rules are good," Zhu Xiang said, "then ask your son to come over and salute me. The elders and younger ones should be in an orderly manner, right?"

Mrs. Wang turned around and went back to the house. Not long after, she led a child out, followed by the wet nurse.

Zhu Xian glanced at Madam Wang in surprise.

She originally thought that the Queen would reject her request, but unexpectedly, she actually asked the child to call her "Sister" in a proper manner.

Zhu Zhang asked: "Can you recite poems? You are five years old, can you recite some?"

The child naturally didn't understand the twists and turns between adults. After hearing this sentence, he honestly memorized the poem.

Zhu Xuan took the tea bowl and put it at his feet, but didn't take a sip.

She quietly listened to the child reciting one song after another.

Chapter end