Taking on the Magical World 85 Chapter 83: Dark Thoughts

(The synopsis is: Magnus Tempest was a young man back on Earth, filled with hopes and dreams. That is until everything that tied him to Earth was taken and destroyed.

One night tormented with grief and contemplating dark thoughts. He stumbled upon a mysterious black gem-like shard, that whisked him away to another world called, Maiar.)

If you like Warlock of the Magus World or Age of Adepts then it should be right up your alley.

But be warned it is a slow burn, an example that comes to my head is the MC, Magnus Tempest. He will not even touch upon magic, dozens of chapters into the story.

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It truly looks like this simple hut is going to become my final resting place, I thought with an empty chuckle! Sight, I am so young and I had so much ahead of me to do and accomplish, but then again isn't that what everyone thinks when their time comes for them?

A small part of me wondered if I will have a third run at life, but I know that would be very miniscule since this life is already a miracle, thanks to that colossal blazing hand that I noticed in whatever place I ended up in, after I died in my first life.

I do not know what or who, for that matter, let me have a go at a second life in a universe that is very much fictional in my other life. But I am thankful for that person since the alternative was spending what most likely would have been an eternity in that black nothingness, which most likely had been the afterlife.

Deep down and in the middle of some dark nights, I know that my second life has a cost, I do not know what it is. But what I do know for sure, is that there is no free lunch in this world, or any other world that there is in the massive multiverse that holds everything and everyone.

I have the sneaking suspicion that one day I will meet that being or thing that gave me a nothing short of a second life, and I will have to pay up for the massive gift I have been bestowed.

Anyways that being most likely only gave me one chance, only one chance to have a go at this life and fulfill whatever he needed for me to fulfill, or maybe it is not, the wretched part of me whispered. Maybe I was just a chess piece thrown on to the board just for the heck of it, by that mysterious being? Who knows for sure, certainly not you since you don't even know why you exist for!

Those dark, gloomy reflection filled my mind and plagued my thoughts, but just as quick as they came they left since I immediately dispelled and squashed them then and there. Dark thoughts like those could drive a man mad, and chip away at his humanity because at the end of the day I know that I will meet that entity some where down the road which is life.

When I do meet him or her, maybe it, meh? Whatever it turns out to be I will just ask them to their face, why? That simple! So why do I have to ruin myself with those thoughts that are so far out of reach? Anyways is best left for philosophers to contemplate our existence in the universe, let them drive themselves crazy with things that do not matter in the day to day life of an average person.
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With those thoughts coming to a close, I felt much better, it was like I was drowning myself in a sea of worry and concern, but now it is like I came back to the surface and I could breathe the fresh scented air which was carefreeness and freedom for the first time in ages.

I shook my head to myself in disappointment, what was the first thing I promised myself when I came into this world? That I will live life to the fullest and enjoy the literal magic in it, but here I am worrying myself and digging myself a hole which to jump in and never come out from.

That was exactly the sort of pitfall that I fell into my last life, I let the opinions of others subconsciously shape me and direct my life, to make it much more worse, I can now see that I too took an active role in its downward spiral.

I let that bitch of a stepmom that I had in my last life, continuously insult me and did not do anything about it or even without batting an eyelid. All I did was curse her and wish for her ruination, I let her insults define and shape me, and then there was my father on the other hand.

The man who was never there for his son while he sent all of his time with a spiteful and witless woman, who hated and despised his only son. I remember taking his absents in stride, I never did want to take away from his time on business trips since he was out making money to feed and clothe me.

But it would have been nice to have him around, anyways it was just how the way thing where, and there is not that much control a kid has over things like that. But when he started to listen to that wretched woman and her lies, that is when my opinion of him hit rock bottom.

There was no more love between us just the connect of blood which was basically nothing, and with that, I lost the last thing that makes you a human, my final connection. No more did I care for things like school and what not, since why would I? It not like I was pressured to do good at school like all the other kids.

All those memories swirled in my mind and I came to a conclusion, my second conclusion for that day, I do not if I am on a roll or if I am on a roll, I feel like Yoda who has is one with the force. But all jokes aside, let get back to my conclusion. No matter what I do not want to lose these human connections that I have built so far in this new life!

At an all time high, I unconsciously took a bit from the goulash in front of me and it tasted really good, I woke up from my musing and took a second look at it.

Chapter end