As Chang held her mother's limp hand and cried, begging her, she felt a slight twitch from it . Li Hua's eyes fluttered open, her eyes glassy and unfocused . Chang started screaming for the doctors and nurses as she saw her eyes opening .
LiHua made a small writing motion with her other hand as her eyes started to focus on Chang . Chang didn't understand at first, but as her mother continued to do the motion while looking at her she realized what she wanted .
Chang went to the wall and grabbed an info sheet with a blank back, a couple of magazines and a pen . She put the blank side of the paper over the magazines, to give her a better writing surface and put it under her hand with the pen .
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As soon as she had the pen in her hand Lihua started to frantically scrawl across the page, quickly covering it in black ink . After it had been filled Li Hua dropped the pen, letting her hand go limp .
After writing whatever it was she wanted to she turned to Chang and gave her a small smile that was bursting with love and pride . As she smiled Chang felt the slight grip in her other hand grow lax .
She looked down at it briefly and as she did she heard the long flat tones of the machines her mother was attached to . Chang called out and tried to rouse her, but her eyes were already fixed on nothing .
Chang screamed and cried but it did nothing . A few of the doctors pulled her away as they swarmed around her mother . She reached her hand out not wanting to let go yet as she struggled .
The sounds of her daughter's and the doctors shouts seemed to become fainter, the harsh tones of the machines, were just a gentle buzz, even the harsh fluorescent lights seemed softer and more comforting . Chang, the doctors, and the world around her started to become faint, and their shapes indistinct .
After having put on there everything she wanted to tell her daughter . Lihua released the pen and let herself sink back . The pain had reached a culmination before disappearing, leaving only a hint of the memory of it . She felt like she was receding into a room far from where she was . Somewhere where there was no pain, no sadness, no loss . Nothing .
Lihua let herself fall into the release from the pain and suffering . Her last thoughts still being for her daughter .
'I wonder if you ever read all those letters I sent through the years, or ever viewed the pictures . Jean-Jacques please take care of my daughter . I have no one else now to rely on now .
'Liang Jian Amal please don't disappoint my expectations either .
'Chang please forgive your mother for not being able to accompany you through your life . I wish I could have been there for you .
'I wanted to see you wear a white wedding dress and walk down an aisle . I wanted to see you marry someone you loved, and see you together with them to the end of my days . I always wanted to see your first child and hold them and see the joy in your face . I wanted to watch your child grow and see the joy they brought you like you brought me . You and your father were the greatest sources of joy in my life .
'I love you so much and I'm so proud of you . You are so strong, just like your father, you will survive this and much more . We will be looking out for you always . Please forgive us for not being able to live longer to be there for you .
'We love you so much and we always will . '
Chapter end
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