As they rode home in the taxi cab, Li Hua and Chang remained all the way to the house . Chang offered the man a little extra to help her with her mother, they hadn't been able to take her wheelchair with her, and had used an airport one to the cab .
'I'll have to get Mom something else soon . ' After paying the man she entered inside the cold house carrying only the picture and a small wax of cash .
"Brr, it's so cold in here! Even for November!" Lihua complained from the sofa . "Xiao Xie will you turn the furnace on and up?"
Chang nodded wordlessly, first draping a blanket over her that had been lying on the back of the sofa .
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"Ah thank you sweetie . " Li Hua smiled sweetly at her daughter, her heart breaking to see the latter's drawn and pained face . "I'm sure it will be OK?"
"Will it though? I wrote him a coded letter like I used to do with Dad, this little written word games in our notes . The more I think about it though Jian probably wouldn't understand, I don't remember if I even told him about that . I don't quite remember what I wrote, I was so stressed but I think I said something like I don't love you and some other mean stuff . .
Big fat tears started to fall over and over . "Mom I don't think I ever told him I love you, and I do . I love him very much . I'm still worried about him leaving, what if he never even reads it at all? What if he died already, and I'll just never know?!"
"Come here, hey, calm down . You're working yourself up . " Chang sat down by her mother, who tried to brush away her tears . "First off all, I highly doubt that he died, that boy is far too tenacious to be taken down so easily .
"Secondly I think he knows, but you should tell him that in person When you see him . And you will, after everything he's done and been through, I highly doubt he would just let you walk away, even if he doesn't understand your letter .
"He's probably going to be pretty angry and hurt, if he doesn't, and youll have to be prepared for that when you see him . You will see him again so stop worrying, you just need to be patient and wait right now . "
"Just how long will I have to wait?"
"I can't tell you that sweetie, you'll just have to be strong . "
Chang sniffed while holding her mom, "I'll try mom . "
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Two weeks quickly passed by her even though every day seemed to drag . Every time the doorbell rang or the phone went off she would fly to it waiting for Jian .
Still there was no word .
Thanksgiving was a rather dreary affair in their household that year, unlike previous years, excluding the one right after her dad passed . Every holiday that year had been painful . Her mother tried to encourage her to think positively and she tried .
Chang became really good at smiling even when she felt like falling apart and crying . Her mother's strength of kindness inspired her to work harder to be better support for her mother .
'He' s not coming anymore, I just need to accept that and move on . For now I need to make the most of this time with mom . . '
The predicted date was quickly advancing on them whether they wished it or not . Chang could only watch as her mother slowly lost almost all of her functions and come to need assistance with everything .
LiHua' s speech was one of the last things that started to be affected . Spurred on by this Lihua began to open up to her more, as if wanting to pass all her memories and knowledge on before she lost the ability to .
Chapter end
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