LEGEND OF THE GOLDEN TIGRESS 491 What Am I Doing?

In that long, lonely road, with trees lined up on both side, that lonely figure eluded a sense of loneliness and confusion.

With a cigarette in his hand, he absent-mindedly stood there in front of the cementary making the security guard uneasy.

That handsome, well-dressed man, who had a scholarly aura around him was staring blankly most of the time, but whenever there was someone entering the place, he would perk up and his dark eyes gazed at those people with expectation and soon as if he realised that was not the person he was looking for, he'd be dejected. He stood there for a long time now yet he still had no plans of leaving anytime soon.

'Should I report him? Could he be a stalker? What kind of person will come straight from the airport and wait in front of a cemetery? But he looks like he is from a decent family! '

The security guard was in a serious dilemma.

Lu YuanJun was not sure why he was here either. Up until yesterday, he was a renowned Professor teaching history in the Nation's most Prestigious A University. The youngest professor the in the University's history. Everything was going well, until...

He didn't want to dwell on his decision to quit the highly respected and coveted job he loved so dearly. It was hard for him to go against his family's wishes to study history. But he insisted on it and got to where he was by his own hardwork and accomplishments and not by using his family's connections.

And now... He is back!

But, What's done is done and he had already decided.

"Why isn't she here yet?" he mumbled looking at the time in his mobile phone screen and checked the date once again. There were some missed calls from an unknown number and he ignored it.

"It is her father's death anniversary and she should be here"

It's been almost two years since he came back and that too was to attend his third brother's wedding ceremony. But the moment he decided to return to his native city, he had this urge to meet her. The last time they met, it was her father's funeral that happened during the second year of their high school.

This girl always gave him a weird feeling in his heart. He always wanted to tell her something. Especially that day of her father's funeral, he did something unforgivable and he kept away from her out of guilt.

Li Xueman.... Why aren't you here yet? I want to talk to you.

Suddenly the wind picked up speed and the red autumn leaves, started falling like shooting stars, like a scene from romance dramas his mother used to watch. He looked up and was elated to see the one he was looking for walking towards the cemetery.

Stubbing the cigarette in the portable ashtray he had, he stood straight and held on to the handle of his bag to walk towards her.

'How Pretty!'

Wearing thick glasses that failed to conceal her pretty light brown eyes and a black business suit that couldn't hide her perfect figure with slender waist and long legs, she looked pretty even though it looked like she was on her way to work. Her high pony tail swayed side to side as she walked elegantly in that four inch high heels.
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In the past, she always dressed like a princess with frilly frocks and matching shoes. She hated anything not pink and would throw a fit, complaining to her father. It is refreshing to see her in dark colors.

'She has grown!'

A pleased smile formed on his lips but it soon disappeared.

She was not alone!

There was another young man beside her. For some reason, he felt his heart sink seeing those two walking side by side with him holding the bouquet of flowers to place on the grave. He placed his hand on his heart that hurt.

'She has a boyfriend,' he smiled mocking his own stupidity.

'She is twenty seven, like me. It is not odd for her to have a boyfriend or she might even be married if she brings him to her father's grave!'

For some reason, he didn't feel like talking to her anymore and dragging his heavy luggage, he hailed a cab that passed through that secluded place, luckily.

"Tian Feng Estates"

Lu Yuanjun told the driver who politely asked for his destination after helping him with his luggage and the driver was stunned for a second before he drove the car.

'Tian Feng Estates? Does he work there? No this young man has an aura of a noble. Could this be the fourth young master who left the family a long time ago? The Prodigal Fourth son of the Noble Lu family?'

The driver was in his thoughts but Lu Yuan Jun was looking at the rear view mirror to see Li Xueman standing at the entrance of the cemetery.

' Is she looking here' he wondered as he felt like their eyes met in the mirror. He turned to look through the glass to see her turning and getting inside of the cemetery with the man beside her placing his hand on her back and guiding her in.

He closed his eyes, turned to the front and slumped on the seat. Now both his heart and head hurt.

The car reached the entrance of the estates. The big gate stopped from them going inside and the driver was amazed to see the big walls, around that property that looked like a Fort.

Lu YuanJun poked his head out at the camera hoping the security, identified him but the gate didn't open.

"Ha! How pitiful not to be recognised in my own home!" he snorted. During his previous visits, he never got back to his home but just attended his brothers' wedding and went back to the city he worked at immediately.

He dialed his mother's number from his phone.

"My poor son must be stranded alone. How could you come back without him...?" his mother's voice sounded from the other side. She must have answered the call, unknowingly again. His lips curled up. His mother was good at many things but operating a smart phone was her achillis heals.

" Oh.. I think I pressed the green thing... This devil! I think, I'm on a call... Wait...how do I... Right... Who is it? Hello?"

"Mum," Lu YuanJun said and his smile was well translated by the tone he spoke making Tang WeiHua blush. She got caught again by her son.

"Where are you? I sent a driver to pick you up and why didn't you pick up his calls? Poor boy, are you lost? Stay where you are. Mummy will send you...."

"Mum!" it was his turn to be embarrassed since his mother's loud voice could be heard by the driver too.

'What does she think I am? A two year old? Why would I get lost? Its not like I forgot my way back home!'

"I'm at the entrance of our estate. The door..."

Before he finished, his mother started shouting at the driver to pick him up from the entrance of their estate, without even ending the call.

Chuckling gently, Lu YuanJun alighted from the cab after ending the call himself and the driver placed his luggage on the ground as if it was a precious thing. No one wants to anger the Lu family. But seeing the hefty tip he got he was all smiles and showering blessings for his nine generations, he left.

As he slowly walked towards the entrance, the door opened and as he walked in a little further in, their family's Rolls-Roy's Ghost rolled in front of him.

The driver apologised to him profusely and without saying a word, he sat in the back and he was brought inside. Their estate sprawled around for hundred acres and their Manor which was built in the Western style with almost twenty odd bedrooms, three libraries and even a cigar room. Growing up here in a westernised home, no one could understand his love for Chinese history.

Lu Yangjun got down at the entrance and his mother came running towards him and hugged him, "My poor boy... Look how thin you are..."

She continued and as he was struggling to get out of her grip, he heard that majestic voice of his father, "Look who decided to come home, finally!" he said with a harrumph but his eyes were filled with happiness and pride.

"Ah, don't make a scene. It's not like you are seeing me after a decade. You guys visited me every other month and nagged me to death," he said with a fake frown and his father patted firmly in his back.

"Welcome back, fourth!" Lu Kong smiled.

"Are you leaving somewhere?" Lu YuanJun asked his father to change the topic knowing where it will lead to.

"Your father is going to pay respect to Uncle Li," his mother was the one answered as his father's eyes misted with sadness.

"He was a dear friend and he passed away so early," Lu Kong let out a deep sigh as his thoughts wandered. His friend who was also his business rival, died early and his business suffered a lot. His daughter is the one trying to prevent her father's company from bankruptcy now. He offered help but she refused saying she'd be doing it on her own to save her father's legacy. She didn't want her father's company to be absorbed by the Lu family's Tian Feng Enterprise. She really is a nice girl.

" Manman, that good girl... I really thought third would marry her judging by how close they were. Then she'd be family and would have had to accept our help," Lu Kong spoke from his heart.

Lu YuanJun felt like his heart was stabbed for some reason.

Yes! Everyone knew she liked third brother! But third brother married the fashion designer from his company, shocking everyone.

" Where are you going? Join me..." Lu Kong tried to stop his fourth son now trying to get inside since he wanted to leave that place, "Now that you are back, help father and your second brother in our business. It's...."

"Lalalalala..." he closed his ears and walked past his father as if he didnt want to hear what his father was saying.

Her went in, took a shower to freshen up and lighting a cigarette, stood by the window where a telescope was placed. He used to spend a lot of time with this telescope, his father presented him for his twelfth birthday.

A maid came and informed him that he take brunch his mother had prepared and he nodded and sent the maid away.

As nostalgia hit him looking at the telescope, he stubbed his cigarette and looked through the telescope and his hands naturally set the telescope like he had set a thousand times in the past.

Towards her room!

She was always a part of his life. He always felt this pull towards her which he couldn't explain.

The Li family used to be their neighbours in the past when Uncle Li was well and her room was in the second floor, like his room is and since her study table was beside her window, he could see her from his room most of the time, through the telescope.

He didn't know and he still wasn't sure what made him do this. It could be considered stalking, a crime!

Back then, there was a big hole in their fence and she used to crawl through the hole and visit their home often. She saw the telescope in his room and threw a tantrum with her father and he bought her a telescope, in pink.

Lu Yuan Jun was feeling a bit ecstatic reminiscing. But soon his mood turned sour. Now the neighbouring Manor is owned by some other family who has no sense of aesthetics. The hole in the fence is fixed and the little swing by the tree with flower vines spiralling around the rope of the swing, where she'd be happily swinging in the past is no more. Those new occupants really have no artistic taste.

There is supposed to be a tree there, with a swing. Not an effing swimming pool!

"Ah, why am I bothering myself with this nonsense?" he mumbled and stood straight.

He was delighted in the past when she bought a telescope too. He thought she'd be asking him instructions and he wanted to help her after she'd beg him for help. But she went and asked his third brother and he taught her everything. He agrees his third brother was already in the senior year of high school and more cooler than him but would it hurt her to just ask him out of courtesy? They both were in the same grade and same class after all!

And as if it is not enough, he caught her peeping at his third brother with her telescope one day.

What a vile woman! Shameless!

For some reason he lost interest in his telescope after that. He didn't use the telescope much after that day.

She really was agile like a monkey. When he was in his freshman year in high school, just a year before her father passed away, he was in his room, playing a CD he stole from under his third brother's mattress.

He knew it must be some "Adult videos" and he decided to check to confirm his doubts before warning Manman of how disgusting his third brother is. That foolish woman is so trusting of his third brother and since she was his classmate, he found it his duty to enlighten her. She was so stupid.

As the video played, it actually was what he doubted. He tried to stop that video but the extremely intimate moments of that couple doing "it" and the noises from the video, made his body weird making a certain part in his lower body excited.

As he was too engrossed in trying to find a way to calm down "the little him", he had totally forgot the window was open and in his fluster, he accidentally increased the volume too.

He finally switched off his computer to get out of his mess but he still couldn't calm down his excited little brother.

At that time a head with a big pink bow popped up from his window. Li Xueman had climbed up the wooden trellis by the wall and was peeking inside.

Lu YuanJun who was already at his wits end saw the girl peeking inside his room, hanging from his windowsill and he blushed to his ears as his hand reflexively covered his crotch which only made him look more suspicious.

"Were you watching p*rn?" she asked, her big eyes wide, with a playful smirk in her lips as if she was happy she caught him.

Shameless, shameless woman!

He got so embarrassed and in his fluster didn't know what he was doing and went and slammed the window close without noticing she was placing her hand there.

"Ahh!"

A loud, pathetic scream was heard as she had let go of her hand and ended up falling from the second storey.

Thankfully there were come soft shrubs underneath that broke her fall and other than a few scratches that weren't that deep, she was fine.

That day his father had forced him to apologise to her father and her for hurting her.

Was it even his fault? She was the one who climbed through his window and peeked at him. He would have not apologised even if it meant punishment if not for the face she had his secret.

She blackmailed him using this secret and forced him to go with her to watch stupid romance movies, to walk around in shopping malls carrying her bags and she even made him eat with her in a fancy dinner in a French restaurant on stupid Valentine's day.

That woman was a shrewd!

'How did I think she became pretty somehow! I must have gone stupid! And why did I feel sad now that she is married? Ah, right I must have felt bad for her husband Who'd be beaten like a drum by her'

Lu YuanJun who was in extreme denial about his feelings towards Li Xueman, fell on the bed and lying on his belly, he sighed.

What is going on with me? What am I even doing?

The last month, he started to get weird dreams. So weird that, in those dreams, he was an Emperor and there was a woman with golden hair and a man with silver hair and.... Weird stuff!

There would be bits and pieces of these dream that continues with the timelines all jumbled and it was weird he remembered those dreams really well after he wakes up too.

His dreams were so vivid and there were many times he felt like he had lived through it all.

He was confused for a couple of weeks and expressed his concerns with his good friend, the archaeologist, Zhong Yanchen. He thought he would mock him for going crazy but he held his hands and with a serious expression said that he might be getting his memories from his past life.

YuanJun could only roll his eyes hard.

'Seriously, memories from past life? Like humans could float! And gods... Seriously? I most have gone crazy with the workload'

He tried to take a break since it has been years since he actually took a break and thought the dreams would go away. But every night there would be drams of him and this other woman and some other people. It only got worse.

His Prime minister looked exactly like his father although his hair color and the colour of his eyes were different.

And the Prime Minister's son, looked like his eldest brothers who are identical twins.

And his third brother look alike was not there, but the friend of that woman who was a silk tradesman was similar in his characteristics like his third brother who has the best brand name for designer apparels for women in the entire country.

Could third brother be that friend of that woman?

'Who is that woman and why do I feel calm whenever I see her in my dream? Was she my lover? Why are these dreams coming in fragments...?'

He mumbled but he didn't have any answers. He was scared he was going crazy and so he resigned his job and left the university even though they didn't accept his resignation.

In his confused state, he didn't even felt hungry and went to sleep.

Chapter end