I'll Die If I Fall in Love, It's Too Hard! Chapter 1

 Love is bitter.

The word ‘bitter’ is just putting a word ‘painful’ in more softer way, it is one kind of internet slang.

 

Since the word, painful, was slightly too heavy.   She felt like it just exaggerated things.

Though, the people from the past had created this kind of love poet.

 

“ Just like a star lily no one realized had bloom under a thicket

My feeling of love which she didn’t realize was there for her

Was a sad and painfull one ”

 

For a highschooler like herself, the word painful, and a waka(Some Kind of Japanese poet) was just too hard for her.

She thought that a net-slang, the word ‘bitter’, was enough.

 

“Hinchan, you know, it just happen that I forgot my homework for today, you know”

“Eh, again? *sigh* it can’t be helped then...”

 

Fujii Hina.  A girl with plain face with straight perm hair that she let loose on her back.

 

If one had to say, then her drooping eyes and her slanted eyebrow would be what particular about her appearance.  

A highschool girl that you could met anywhere... would be a hard statement to describe her.  

 

“ I didn’t really have any confidence with my work though...”

“Yaay,  I know I can believe in you”

 

What special about Hina was that personality.  From the perspective from the people around her, then she would just be a simple ‘kind girl’.  Put it in bad way, then it would mean that she was a person that people usually shoved their cleaning job into, or the so called ‘soft hearted’ person. The kind of people that you would feel, ‘Ah this kid didn't understand what was going on, eh.’

However, her true personality was more beyond that.  It was her personality that she usually hide and never show to anybody.

Hina love human.  It didn’t matter whether its man or woman, she love them all.  She felt unbearably happy of being needed by other people. If someone praise her, it would easily put her into ecstasy.

 

In other word, she easily fell in love.

 

“Seiya, you always said  the same thing, you know?”

“Hehehe, I love you, Hinchan!”

 

And so her friend hugged her.  She sure was in good mood.

Even though her mouth said things like “*sigh* You, really”, deep inside, Hina’s heart was beating fast.

 

‘Eh, what are you meant with love, is what you meant just like what I imagined?Is it an OK? You’re giving me a signal?  We’re both woman you know’、She screamed in her mind, felt like her head about to go crazy.

Of course, she understood that it was just a joke.

But it meant that in her friend’s mind, she and Hina was so intimate that her friend able to casually spout such joke. This is bad.

 

However she musn’t let this emotion out. If she happened to let it out, then their friendship would easily crumbled away.  Surely her friend would felt disgusted by her. Even though she love her. But, it’s because she love her.

 

It was bitter.

By loving someone, meant that you’d to hurt other in return. Because you’d to keep it by yourself deep inside your heart, love is bitter.

 

‘Ah this is bad, she hugged me again.  She felt soft, also smells good. ‘

 

Then, as she thought that in her head, Hina finally lost her consciousness for real.

 

She felt pathetic she fainted in the class.  Surely everyone would be worried about her. Ah, it’s bitter.

But, wait.

If they really worried about it, if made her felt happier instead, it would made her fainted once again.

 

‘Again with such stupid thought. ‘

 

“... Hmm, eh?”

 

She finally realized.

Hina slowly sat down, looked to the surrounding then wondered.

Eh, where is this place? It doesn’t seems like the nurse office.

 

She was inside a room that was as big as a convenience store.  Covered with white wall from all side, with no furniture could be seen.  Not to mention the exit, there wasn’t even a window to be seen. She started to wonder how she could even enter the room.

 

“Ah, I’ve seen something like this in western film” (TL: saw?)

But at that movie, the main character were died one by one.

Her face started to turn blue.

 

“Eeh, I don’t want that... Even though I am still 17 years old... And I have to buy a new game that will be released next week...”

 

She wondered if this was a dream. It would be great if this was just a dream.  But even so, if she had to saw a dream, she wished for it to be a better dream that this.

 

However.

 

“Ah, good morning”

Suddenly someone greeted her from nowhere, Hina’s body jolted in surprise.

She turned around.

 

“Who, who are you... EH, Seriously, Who are you!?”

 

It was a silhouette of a human(?) figure, that was wrapped in blue frame. No matter how she saw it, she could only thought of a stick man.

 

“But this is giving a mysterious vibe, it might be not that bad”

“Eh? It's first time someone give that kind of reaction, though”

 

The stickman awkwardly mutter so.  It’s so small that it was on the same eye level with the sitting Hina.

It's clear voice giving the impression of androgynous voice. High pitched voice that would be hard to categorized to either man or woman.

 

“Well, would you mind if I explain what is happening to you?”
“Ah, yes, with pleasure”

 

The man(woman?) looked confused when Hina answered so.

 

“I wonder, how can you acting so calm in this situation?”

“Eh, because you’re going to explain things for me?”

“Hmmm. Well it’s good that you’re calm though.  It’s really good thing. But it’s kinda ruin my pace, you know”

 

The stickman made a gesture like it scratches its head.  It’s looked kinda cute. Oh, not good, Hina slowly became interested in that thing.

 

“Well, umm, after this, I’ll assign a mission for you to accomplish”

“Alright, I understand”

“Eh, you’ll accept that? Well, it’s good though”

“Eh, well, it’s something that stickman-san said after all”

“Wait, it’s not like you know me that much, right? Also, my name is not even Stickman”

“Then what should I call you?”

“... Eh, umm, anyway.  You can call me as Schulz”

“Ooh, It’s cute! Are you a foreigner? Figures I never saw something like you in my home country”

“Are you possibly kinda wrong in the head? Eeh, it’s weird... Your intellect and knowledge should've been high, though”

 

It seems that the stickman couldn't really satisfied with what happened.

‘Well, even if you say so’ Hina thought, tilting her head to the side.

 

“Well, but you have an appearance of a stickman figure after all. I don’t think that fact will change even if you deny that, right?”

“Well,that’s true though”

“Schulz-san, umm, you’re quite cool actually...”

“Even thought you called me as stickman just a second ago?!”

“Ah, so do you have any hobbies? How about we start as a friend first?”

“Your communication power is amazing, you know! I am surprised!”

 

‘Ah, not good, our conversations didn’t advance at all. ‘

Schulz made a fake cough, then he forcefully brought out a topic.

 

“After this, I’ll have you reincarnated into the world of ‘Otome Game’”

“Eh? Is that so?”

“Eh, yes. Yes it is”

“Alright, I understand”
“Woah, she easily accept it”

 

‘Ah, fuck it. It’s not like we have  to reach a mutual understanding. ‘Schulz gave up.

‘Let’s just skip the detail, this is my job after all.  That’s right, Hina is very cooperative about this mission. Isn’t that a good thing? It is really good thing. ‘

Schulz readies(?) his attitude, then continued the topic.

 

”Do you know? Shoujo Game”

“I am, I love it”

“Alright then, it’s a good thing”

“I, actually quite easy to fall in love”

“Well, the people in your era have quite high romance power after all.  Though that’s one of the reason we choose you”

 

Hina romance power was 530.000. It’s 3-20 times higher than usual high schooler girl.  At first, Schulz thought that he had misread the number, but that doesn’t seems the case.  That’s why his higher-ups became interested in her. And that’s how Schulz got thrown through time and space, and arrived at this place.

Though, sure enough his target was quite weird in the head.  But, it was still in the range of common sense. After all, she didn’t suddenly begin to act violently , or even rant in some weird language, right?

 

‘Still, She didn’t look like someone special who are capable of mounting romance power several ten thousand fold than normal people, though.’ Schulz thought.

Hina then started to talk to Schulz about how easy to fall in love she was.

 

“Well, for example, if you love a boy, you wanted to go out with him, right?”
“Yeah”

“But then, in the next morning, You suddenly fell in love with another boy. The same level of love with the previous one”

“Eh, okay”

 

Indeed, she was easy to fell in love.  Or rather, that was pretty bitchy. Even though she look pure.

 

Suddenly, Hina’s tone dropped.

 

“Furthermore, you also fell in love with the boy’s little sister that he introduce to you...”
“Alright...”

‘So you’re fine with both gender, eh. What a weird girl.’

 

“His parents, too. Of course you’ll thought that since they’re the one who giving birth to him and raise him, they surely are good people, and wanting to become closer to them...”

“...”

 

‘Even the parents, eh. She’s weird. (Convinced)’

 

“In the past, I almost destroy the family of the boy that I go out with...”
“...”
“Since that accident, I decided that I’ll only fall in love inside the game...”

“...”

What a pitifull girl.

 

“Even though I’ve never said this to anyone... I ended up telling you this. I am very sorry”

“No, it’s fine. I am able to know the roots of your romance power. I’ll use it as reference”

After he console her like that, she continue.

“By the way, that was in the second grade of elementary school”

“Seriously!?”

“That time I went playing together with that boy’s father, and his mother saw his father kissing my cheeks”

“Well duh, of course their household collapsed”

 

Schulz’s tone was about to collapse as well.

Chapter end