Fenrir's Journey : I Shall Devour The Heavens! Chapter 4

Other than the warmth of its Master, loneliness seemed to be the only emotion the Kobold could feel . It was almost like the emotion completely encompassed its body, threatening to consume what little self-awareness it had . Unable to deal with the loneliness any longer, the Kobold began scratching at the trees in the garden, digging holes, and pulling up grass . It 'needed' to do something, anything, to keep it distracted from the loneliness . The only thing that kept it going was the 'trust' it had towards the only existence that had ever treated it kindly, it's Master . . .

It hurt . . . everything hurt . . . its stomach, muscles, bones, everything . The Kobold felt like the pain of loneliness had completely soaked through its existence . If not for the 'promise' of it's Master, the Kobold felt like the pain would have been unbearable . It would be 'so easy' to just simply end everything . . . it just had to make the scary girl angry . . . but it didn't . It 'couldn't' betray its Master like that, not after everything that had happened . . . not after it waited so long . It wanted to be 'good', just like it's Master always told it to be . . .

Just as the pain seemed completely unbearable, the Kobold sensed the presence of its Master once again . If it had tear ducts, the Kobold would have cried as it weakly tried to lift its body and go to its Master . Then, just as before, its Master came to it with a face full of concern and the happy times began again . This time, knowing that this moment wasn't likely to last, the Kobold did its utmost to spend as much time as possible with its Master . Even when he was hard at work in the warm and cozy 'workshop' that he had built, the Kobold stayed nearby . Just watching its Master hard at work made it feel content and, whenever he would take a break, the Kobold wanted to be nearby to show its support . . .

As it expected, the sad and lonely times came once again, this time in what felt like a very short period of time . Everything was so much better whenever its Master was around so, seeing him leave this space, the Kobold felt dread . However, just at it had done both times before, the Kobold resolved itself to wait patiently . Its Master had done so much for it, all without ever asking for anything in return . Thus, trusting in the 'promise' its Master had made, the Kobold waited once again, no matter how painful and lonely things became . . .

It hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . . it hurt . . .

Feeling as though something inside of itself had broken, the Kobold could only repeat the same thought over and over within its small mind . It didn't truly understand the seed that had formed but, on an instinctual level, it knew what it was feeling was an emotional pain that was beyond tolerance . . .

(Fenrir's Commentary: 'It is painful being lonely . . . ')

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